March 2009
My Top 5 Artists (Week Ending 2009-3-22) →
So I leave in 20 mins and I was thinking of everything I have learned in these past 2 days and it is too much to even write down. I have learned so much about the people around me too, who is my friend, who is just a drug buddy and who is like a brother to me. I have so many thoughts rushing through my head that I can’t really write right now, so I am just going to leave you with this...
Paranoia In B Flat Major
I keep tellin’ myself that it’ll be fine You can’t make everybody happy all of the time I find myself in a place that I never been A place that I thought that I could never be There’s people looking back at me I keep having this dream; I’m at a party There’s people throwing drinks and screaming telling me that I don’t belong Lately life’s been the same I find this comfortable place With...
Last night it hit me.
So I was thinking last night about how all this happened, how I got to where I am now. Why I am having all these troubles and it was because no one was there for me. When I was younger my mom got really sick and the doctors told me she might die. I felt so guilty, I felt like I was partly to blame. I was downstairs before we went to the hospital, I was on the computer playing a game or chatting, I...
Goodbye life, hello http://www.2nentrada.com/
Finally
I can leave without thinking there is something I wanted to say before I left. Minus telling my old teacher how much she fucked with my head. Though I am still tempted to email her and tell her how much I hate her, but that would probably be bad karma (even though I don’t believe in karma), still it isn’t a good quality to have. I am just going to move on. Oh well, I am probably going...
Salvia divinorum →
katherinemichael:
“The sage of the seers”
Have fun. :-) Remember ENVIROMENT ENVIROMENT ENVIROMENT!
Also I am going to miss you a lot. <3
I decided that I am going to go to boarding school, I told my parents about all my shit and we all thought it would be best if I left and got some help.
I might be leaving soon, to go to boarding school. I don’t really know yet if I am going, but I want to. I can’t handle this place anymore, I am going crazy. I literally feel like a crazy person, I shake, throw up nonstop, think about killing myself nonstop. I just don’t think I can survive here much longer, I hope they send me away. But at the same time I don’t want to...
God
There are times in my life where I wish I could believed in god. Now is one of them.
Lawl
I like how I completely just stopped regretting if I do a drug or not. I use to not even touch some drugs, now I don’t even give a shit. Ever since last Friday I have sort of stopped caring about everything.
So I am sitting in the office of night school right now, calm, collective, still reflecting on friday. I ended up being able to talk my teacher into letting my teacher give me all my work and doing it alone in the office so I can have my breakdowns in private.
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