January 2010
It has been one HELL of a year.
I have been trying to decide what to write for the past hour and if I could only say one thing about this whole year at all I would say. I am glad I survived March 6th 2009. I don’t know how I did, but for some reason I didn’t die and just because of that it gives me the fuel to keep on trucking.
December 2009
Life has too many
ups and downs. I was in a very pleasant up for a few months. Randomly I am down now. This is always how it is. Fine for awhile, then it sucks again, then its fine for awhile, then I hate life for awhile. I don’t know, it’s a never ending cycle, hopefully this cycle ends soon. Maybe when school starts!
OC MAYBE????
Today was a day from hell.
Everything was good for awhile but I found out my mom has cancer today and it is the deadly kind. I literally just shut down at that point and was like I am done with emotions for the day. Later I had a rough run in with a friend and basically he didn’t want to hear me talk about being upset that my mom has cancer because he wanted to get high. I ended up giving in and even though I...
Dr. Hunter S. Thompson
“Life should not be a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving safely in a pretty and well preserved body, but rather to skid in broadside in a cloud of smoke, thoroughly used up, totally worn out, and loudly proclaiming “Wow! What a Ride!’”
ego death is a state of absorption; the ego does not die but the separate personalities combine to provide a transpersonal rather than linear perspective on life
God I am such a bad influence.
So my best friend was with me when I took 7 doses, saw how I acted and how much fun I was having. Then he saw how drastically different I have been over the past few days (for the better) and now he wants to try it. Before I came back from rehab he was in young life and had quit smoking and drinking for awhile. A part of me feels guilty, but honestly I don’t see anything wrong with smoking....
Still feeling the "ego death"
SSSSSNNNNOOOOWWWW
It’s snowed a foot. Looks like I am not doing much for a few days.
Life’s Good.
Anxiety
It has toned down, I can tell. I love it. I feel okay for once. It’s amazing.
I honestly feel like I am more functional and humble about just life after last night. Lol. I don’t think I will ever feel the same as I did before yesterday.
I don't need details to remember last night for...
Finding out that the 7 hits of “weak” acid is actually fucking amazing acid and literally experiencing being on the break of loosing touch with reality and still being able to control it and having a good trip is all that is needed to say. Like wow I didn’t think it was possible to be that fucked up on something remember everything in detail. God so much emotion and just powerful...
Ritalin + Gym = good work out
You would think by now
I would be use to seeing people with track marks on their arms. But every time I see those bubbles and purple caves I cringe.
So far the best weekend I have had in awhile.
LAST NIGHT WAS FUCKING AMAZING. Getting my drink on tonight with the “old” crew + mike. Basically all my favorite people to party with. ^^
is bored of tumblr right now.
I like having a best friend that I really enjoy...
Emalkay - When I look at you
Girl inform me all my senses warn me
Your clever eyes could easily disguise Some backwards purpose It’s enough to make me nervous. Do you harbor sighs, or spit in my eye
…you confuse me.
Two Deep: 72.34.32.121 Two Deep: 3277 Two Deep: pass=Honor
I need to remember this for later.
I can tell today is going to be rough.
Hello my name is Braxton and I am a dubaholic.
I’m not alone cause the TV’s on yeah
I’m not crazy cause I take the right pills everyday and rest Clean your conscience, clear your thoughts with speyside with your grain Clean your conscience, clear your thoughts with speyside
Hangovers
FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH PAINNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN OMG
Crows
There was a swarm of at least a couple thousand crows in my backyard (which is an 18hole golf course lol) and I ran outside and chased them all away. It was like a black cloud was running. Sew fun. About to go smoke a blunt and a few bowls of some beasterssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss, listen to some dubstep and possibly drop acid.
Things I need to redownload
While converting I ran into an issue with some of the itunes music files so I need to redownload some artist. Just ignore this it is for me.
- Against Me!
- All That Remains
- American Hi-Fi
- The Beatles (Discography)
- Benga
- Between The Buried and Me
- Blink 182
- Bob Marley
- Bowling For Soup
- Brand New
- Coheed & Cambria (Discography)
- Coki
- Dance Gavin Dance
- Dj Shadow
- Hot Hot...
Doing illegal things is fun.
I woke up early this morning and had no clue what to do. I exsplored my house because I find when I do that I normally find interesting things I didn’t even know my dad owned. I didn’t find anything sadly, but I did decide to reorganize my music. I noticed that a lot of the music (like 2,000 songs) aren’t even on my computer, so I am currently downloading 1,081 songs and have...
